Today I put in more applications for work, by the sounds of things - either one of these jobs could lead to me getting somewhere else with more hours and more money, for now, its just a matter of waiting.

In the mean time, It's just a matter of waiting and seeing what the outcome is, and acting from that - because in everything I've been through so far, thats all I have left to do, it should only take a few days at the most, and its not like Im stuck on the litteral "Edge" this time around anyway, but thats no reason to become complacent. Yet again, its a case of try, and try, and try(!) again.

In other news, it seems like Patch was right at the party a few days ago, it seems like i have a new girlfriend every few days - due to me going to university and a change of jobs coming, things between me and Heather reached an altered states (Her basically shunning everything i say with a sence of annoyance, she doesn't want me to leave for a new job, and doesnt care if im loosing money, and doesn't care if i throw my future away to stay here in a dead end job for her) - now we've just about managed to stay friends who had some fun together (*heh*story of my life . . . *heh*) but yes, im back on the market YET again, and its aggravating . . . but at least its different.

Looking back at myself a year ago, I never imagined myself here, in a place like this, meeting people like this, getting an entirely new set of friends like this, getting partners like this, loosing partners like this . . . It's different, I've come to call this place "Home" and it feels more like a place thats mine than any other place I've ever been to before this, the struggles I've had, the ones im going through have carved out my place here - a place thats mine.

So im taking all of this with a lesson learned, and Im back on the market once more i guess, and I'm wondering what the hell is going to happen to next, but I'm looking forward to it with a grin, and a slowly developing sence of determination. Gimme a few more months of this and i may just become a sharp, intelligent and witty individual! XD

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